So, the reason I said the other day why I was not having a good day was because I got laid off. Actually the word she used was 'terminated'. What am I? A fuckin military target to kill. It's not the first time I've been laid off but I've never been terminated before. This is also the first time leaving a job that was 100% my fault. I own that. Other jobs I've left was because I choose to walk or unfortunate situations that had nothing to do with my performance.
But that made me less upset than a recent incident where a friend I've known for over 20 years, we always have random conversations, which is what we were doing. We got on a topic of people we've dated and she through a curve ball out there and said she thought we'd end up together at some point. Wow, okay. Strike while the iron is hot right? So we planned a date in San Diego, I made reservations at the restaurant, and had to cancel because that day I was incredibly sick. I'm talking vomiting every 20-30 minutes and the only thing coming out of me was probably just stomach acid. I think it was a casserole I cooked in a really big portion and the leftovers I probably should have tossed a day or two before.
So we tried to set up another date, our schedules were not connecting. Then she confesses she's dating someone else already. WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST SAY THAT!? And what was the point of saying most of the 20 years, well let me do math here, 24 years, that you've always had more than platonic feelings for me? We were teenagers and now we're both knocking on 40. Rejection doesn't bother me. I've been turned down by girls or been broken up with many times. You move on.
How do you throw away 2 decades of friendship because you weren't being honest with me in a really bad way?
Generally, I don't get too upset or upset at all with rejection. I've dealt with worse. This was fuckin gnarly bullshit.
I don't like losing people that I would trust with burying a dead body with no questions asked.